My · Life · As · Is

Well I found a car I really want, and what has me more enticed than anything to buy it is they guy is willing to sign over the title if I drop $500 on it and he will even tow it to my house. He simply does not need the car anymore and in fact has a truck. So, some ups and downs.

Ups: it's a sporty manual black Saab 900 convertible; new tires; new breaks; only 149,000 miles; leather interior(even though it has a very few tears; clutch in moderate condition

Downs: might need a transmission(could be a lot, could be a little); i would have to re-learn stick shift

In the end the good tends to outweigh the bad, I did research on kelly blue book prices- if its in excellent condition and from a dealer $4,055. if in good condition from a private $2,295.

Now then, to say that the transmission is ONLY $1800, from the dealer the price I am paying is $1,365 under. If I use the prvate price I am paying $305 too much. It is a Saab 900 2-door convertible, excellent body condition, no scratches, no dings, etc...

So, $800 for it total, and I get a title. The transmission could very well be less than $1800 as I might can find one from a junk yard thats in decent condition.

What do you guys think?

I have a very good friend living there in Atlanta and she needs help bad. While I realize I will get negative feedback, think before you write and make sure you have your facts straight. I have ready too many stupid stories that just aren't the truth. The most accurate site you can go to is www.forsythnews.com and look for Cumming woman charged with child cruelty.

The question: Does anyone know a good cost efficient lawyer? Please let me know asap. We are trying to get the process going. Thank you. Any help at all would be great.

I got a job utilizing my edumacation, yay!!!! I don't have to answer phones all the time, just some of it, mostly I will be doing data entry. That doesn't bother me one bit, and, to top it off, I work for a law firm!!! Hell yeah!! Now I just hope the pay is decent enough and the benefits. I needs me some health insurance.

I don't know what to do really, I posted here since no one really reads anymore. It works, no one gloats or what have you. I am extremely worried about a mass I have, it's about the size of a marble, hard, and not where people normally get calcium deposits. So, that leads me to think that other things can not be ruled out just yet, and that puts me at having to go to the doctor at the end of the month, if it doesn't go away. Oh and make that two of them, only the second one hasn't reached marble size, and it's a bit on the purple/black side, so it could be a bite, who knows. I haven't displayed any symptoms of poison yet, so who knows.

Other than that, things are handy dandy spoofirific. I miss my Candy and my Carol, I love you guys, and wish I could be in Georgia right now to see you guys. Seeing as no one has hired me yet, I have been playing poker online. I don't have ready access to getting out to go job searching, and before you ask, no nothing is close walking distance. It would take me about an hour with my regimen of excercise just to get there, and I would be worn out, leaving me not to be able to work a full shift. So, I go on careerbuilder, and all the other staffing sites to try and find jobs, and it helps, some. I have had 15 interviews in the past week and no follow up or hires. Oh well, if I had the money to get my own computer I could do one of those work from home bits, and that wouldn't hinder me. But it's having the money to get the computer that leads to the issue. Maybe I can work out a deal with one of those companies and have them buy me a basic dell computer from wal-mart for $500 in exchange for me working for the first $500 for free. We shall see.

Off for now, to do more job hunting.

So I have been going on interviews like crazy lately, and now I got one for tomorrow and no way to get there. How much does that fucking suck? It's like, I kind of have this gut feeling that this interview might be the one for me, I really feel that way. The main issue of all of this is not having a vehicle to go to and from interviews on my own, if I did I would be in good shape. Granted, in order to get a vehicle, you need a job, but damn, just damn, on not being able to call a friend and ask them to transport me to the interview. I know if Carol was here she would do it, but then she and I have always done favors for each other. Shit, she's my life long sister, no one can replace her, and in these times right now, not just the interviews, I miss her, I really do. It might seem kind of sad to say, but she is a rock for me, one of inspiration, and I try to be for her when I can, but sometimes I feel I fall short. Anyways, I miss her, I wish I could see her right now, but oh well, the waiting game on that continues until we can both not be busy. Off for now to play with my nephew for a bit and get dressed enough to be decent around my brother and sister-in-law.

It hasn't been too bad, I am working on Quickbooks Accounting, and trying to get my Access certification. I tried once and failed by 130 points, which the teacher says it means I only missed 2 questions! Two, can you believe that? Oh well, next time I am going to try to make sure I am absolutely proficient in every single term so I can pass. Though studying has never been my strong suit, I will make it work damnit. In other news, I got my GED so I have been submitting my resume to as many places as possible in order to try and procure a career. I wish someone would hire me and give me a company car, but that won't be happening any time soon, so I guess my cats will be getting put up for adoption. :(:( Oh well, life can't be full of happiness, but it will be okay. Eventually I will be getting Turbo, the green van my sister will be getting rid of. I name it Turbo because it is the anti turbo, kind of feels right. Off for now to put in more resumes, love ya'll

What the fuck yo? A parent hates me so I get fired! How does that work? There is a fucking waiting list of at least 50 for kids to get in, and the boss fires me for a parent who has a stick up her ass. I wasn't neglecting her son, or leaving him dirty or anything. She just never liked me from the get go and then gets me fired. If I should see her again, I will remember to thank her for getting me fired, and I am serious about that. I don't mind making an ass out of myself for a woman who doesn't know how greatful she should be that her son is even in our daycare with the list as long as it is. The boss even said she needs to get bills paid, I get that, but with 50 kids to choose from, who would care if the lady with the stick up her butt withdraws her son? Anyways, got my GED this week, my adopted in father died last week, had the funeral over the weekend, and I got fired today. What a great way to come back from the funeral, to get fired.

I just don't get how someone could hate me so much as to want to complain about me. The old me, sure I could see it, but this new me, no way. I work at a daycare, and I am nothing but uber nice to all the kids, and while there are the occasional incidents, that happens, THEY ARE KIDS!!! What does a parent really expect? That their kids are going to be nice all the time? I have one parent who feels for whatever fucking reason that I am neglectful to her son. She complains about the juice, which comes fresh as when the kids go out. So, say we go out at 2, that is when his juice is prepared, yes his mom ONLY WANTS HIS JUICE. So whatever, I fix the juice and we go out, well then I get questioned for even bringing it out there. WTF?! Do they want it out there or not? You can't have both. So, next thing, issue, whatever, her kid goes home with red cheeks, that's what happens when a kid plays hard outside, duh! Kids don't stay clean al the time, which brings me to the next complaint. If her kid has even a smudge of dirt, I am considered to be sending that kid home filthy. If I leave him inside so as not to get dirty I am mean. If I don't let him move anywhere outside but all of 2 square feet, I am controlling. I just don't get it. Then there is the wipes issue, which he can only have HIS WIPES, no one elses. Whatever, I get that. I use his and his booty is still red and his mom has the nerve to say I am using daycare wipes. Also, he got bit today, now I would be upset if my kid got bit too and often, which he does. But all the kids in my class bite, it's called a PHASE. Her kid does it too, along with hitting, pinching, pushing, and squishing, yes he sits on the other kids. I am considered lazy to sit down even for a moment to catch my breath, yet if I stand over a child to make sure he or she is ready for parents, I am controlling. I just can't win, and honestly, I am afraid I might get fired over it. If I do, it would be rediculous, but the customer is always right, even when they are wrong. I know she is planning on complaining to my boss again as she keeps asking when she will be in. She even asked if she could transfer her kid today out of my class so he won't get bit anymore. But what good does that do her when it will end up being her son who bites all the time? Now I have never been a parent before, but I hope to God that I do not turn out like this lady. Her expectations are unrealistic, unpractical, and rediculous. Now, if my kid was the one biting, they would be punished, if they were being bit, I would understand that IT IS A PHASE kids go through, just like anything else, and that it will pass. After all, if I am LEAVING MY KID IN ANOTHER'S care, it is not their fault what happens when another kid approaches. Enough for now, I am off to sleep. Gotta work tomorrow

I think I might be being led to do something crazy and out of the box by none other than God. Now not everyone believes in him and that's fine, everyone has their religious preferences, but mine are to God. Anyways, I feel he might be leading me down the path of surrogacy, for my brother. I have never had a kid before so that is a strike against me, but in my heart I know it would be the biggest blessing. This isn't something I lightheartedly thought about I promise you that. This has been mulling about for a year or so now and it is finally making itself so apparent it's almost scary. My sister-in-law has had trouble conceiving a second child(first one is fine by the way) because of a c-section with the first. The doctor was in a rush to go do his own thing so he put my sister-in-law into the c-section and Jerret was born. A year after his birth my sister-in-law began to try conceiving again with no success. She found out she had pre-eclampcianca(sp?) brought on from the first c-section. This put scarring on her uterus and has made it difficult on her. In order for her to try and conceive again, she has to lose weight(done), get her uterus scraped, get fertility treatment, and hope. But there is no guarantee that the fertility will come through for her. Now, I have heard a lot about surrogate moms and how wonderful it can be to bring home a child of that. I would be a gestational surrogate(my genetics would play no part), or in other words his sperm, her eggs. I have looked it up and it is scientifically possible for one to carry their siblings baby, but it may not be morally right. That brings me to this, I feel soo strongly like I am being lead down the path of surrogacy for my brother, that the morals almost don't matter. An even bigger question is would he be okay with me even bringing up the subject with him? I am sure if I took a long time explaining it to him he would understand, but would a clinic even let us try? I read up on it and it says that a clinic won't let a woman be a surrogate if she has never given birth. But what if, just maybe, we want to give it a go? It would be our chance to be taken and we would all be okay with it, if it were to be an option. Could a clinic be convinced to let us try? I dunno, it's just weighing heavily on my mind. Input is appreciated, but not expected.

I must say that for my dog having been hit by a car, he is relatively fine, so it seems. His ear is scruffed up by a cut, and his ego has been damaged, but he hasn't swollen any, no bones are broken, and he doesn't wimper when I touch him, but that's just it. He won't let others pick him up now, it's odd, yet adorable. I am glad he knows I am his master and not anyone else. I felt like getting the gun out and going to shoot the guy who hit my dog, I would only shoot him in the leg. That would be so he could see a partial view of how it feels to get hit by a car. The guy wasn't even paying attention, just speeding down the road.

In other news, I am studying for my GED still, I know it's been taking me a while, but one never realizes how much they forget until they forget it. I take the GED test March 25-26, and then retakes are at least 30 days away from that. I hope though that it doesn't come to that. Then, when I am done with that I get back to doing Access, the second half of the book, then the certification, then Quickbooks, and then I graduate!!! I will be so happy to leave this school, I am already bored, and can't find the motivation to go on at the moment, but am forcing myself to stick through it and not quit. Btw, I love my beautiful girlfriend Candy, and my best friend Carol. I know it has been a while Candy and Carol, but I am trying to free up time to talk to everyone. Love you guys. Muah!!

I am missing my beautiful girlfriend Candy, and I distaste that I have not yet contacted her since our last talk. I miss you honey and I love you soo much. I might or might not be coming to Frolicon as you know, but I do know I am at least getting my trailer, so that's a good thing. Yay!!! Elisha owns a home scott free and no one to be obligated to for fucking rent. Hell motherfucking yeah! But wait, there's more. I might be getting a Toyota Tercel too, it's like $600 bucks. My brother and I have to go check it out, but we shall see!!! I am gonna try to get a loan too though, because it would be nice to start getting some things done on the trailer. And get the car working if anything should be wrong with it. Cross your fingers, but I am hoping to make it capable of driving to Georgia so I can see people!!! Love you guys, off for now to look at the car online. Muah!!!

I got fucking written up at school today for something I didn't even do. Motherfucking A!!@@@ Two days ago we had the owner of our school come in and she said I was ignoring her when she spoke to me and I wouldn't acknowledge her. Well, first off I was acknowledging her dumbass, secondly I did answer her stupid question, and thirdly, I was also doing a fucking timed exam. There's only so much I can do to please all the dumb people there. I hope to god I never work in tech support, I don't think I have the patience.

I am already six weeks ahead of my program, probably more so now. I just got my PowerPoint certification, so yay! However, now I am focusing on my GED so I can get a professional job and work my way up the ladder! My hope is that when I come back to Georgia I can get an amazing job with great pay so I can support myself and my dreams. My main dream is music, I live for it, and without it I don't really know what I would do. I also want to make the boozepack amazingly more amazing, with new sound equipment for DJ Hex, or whomever is DJing at the time. There are other things to get like booze, or rooms at conventions, or the publicity it deserves. I mean, for real, there will always be a party crowd even when Thandor grows into a different phase, or any of us in the Order. There is also a dream of having my own horses, I want like four or so, on some country land. Now that one would be expensive, so for starters I would want the land, then work on the other stuff.
Who knows, the most important dream is to be with my love and it sucks that I can't be there to hold them right now. You know who you are and you know why I am not mentioning your name. There is a lot at stake right now, and the right people will know when they know. There are certain people I need to talk to before completely going public.
Let's see, oh, I am scheduled to graduate in June, FYI, and that's amazing. I have my best friend coming out here sometime in spring, so I am excited about that. I hope I have my trailer set up by then so she can have some where to sleep. My plans when she comes are to take off school if I can so it's just work while she's here. Then once she goes home I will make up the time at school. It doesn't bother me any, not really. All this is to come in the future of course. My ideal bank account balance would be $50,000 before I come back to Georgia so I won't have any financial worries. It shouldn't be too hard as the cost of living is pretty cheap here. Like Coca-Cola for example, is $1.50 a bottle on average in Georgia. Here in Louisiana is $1.09 on average. That's a fair bit of savings just on that. There are other examples, like car tags, only done once every two to four YEARS. Yes, I said years. Cars are a fair bit cheaper here too, and I will be needing one of those if I am to come back to Georgia. I believe I want a truck, but am not sure yet. Mostly, the dream for a truck is because it would be easier to move things back to Georgia, but, a car with a hitch on it would do too. I just want a nice car, really. Well, I am off for now, mostly because I don't know what else to say.
Muah!

taken from my sexy Candy

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I mean for real, who in the hell bans the sale of sex toys in any county, anywhere? WTF? I say we all need to go to Coweta county and have a sex toy party and have a bunch or orgys. Why would any law legislate take it into their own hands to tell us what we can and cannot do with our bodies and "foreign objects"? That shit just pisses me off to no end, and if I was in Georgia right now I would be making the trip down to Coweta county to peronally distribute condoms. Yep, they even banned condoms, something's severely wrong with that. They want us to have safe sex, but we can't use the one form most commonly used? That's a total contradictory to anything they say.
I believe I saw this in the Atlanta section on lj, or LJ Atlanta. Either way, WTF? Damn people sometimes and their stupidity. Okay I am done venting now. How is my sexy dovetail? Hope you are having a great day. Hugs and kisses.

So, there is this guy, and there is this girl, and I like them both alot. The girl knows who she is, I talk to her alot. The guy is just now finding out this about me, that I want to be polyamorous, and he is at least having an open mind about it. I am hopeful he will accept it because he hasn't been judgemental since finding out that aspect about me. I am hoping he and I will share a physical connection when we meet finally, because everything so far has been going great! Anyways, off for now, just wanted to share the good news.